Love,life,family and pets!!

Well I guess i'm kinda new to this sorta thing so you're all gonna have to bare with me until I get used to it.

Ok so I admit that i'm not the easiest of people to get along with but even I don't deserve all of the bad stuff do I?

I've decided I'm well and truly done with men. To cut a long story short.....a friend of mine said he liked me and I told him I liked him. We agreed over texts to get together. Last night he told me how we'd make the perfect couple and even called me his baby girl (which he'd done several times before). However,today he's just completely blanked the fact I exist! That amongst all the other crap i've had to cope with in previous relationships has knocked my confidence in guys down to zero!!

So this morning i'm downstairs having a laugh and joke with the family when all of a sudden my 'mum' decided to say something along the lines of "i regret ever having kids because they have ruined my life". Now correct me if i'm wrong but did me or my 3 brothers ask to be born?! No we didn't. I know what she was hinting at tho and tbh....it's sick!! You see.....she contracted Hepatitis C after I was born via a blood transfusion and she blames me for it. How it's my fault that hospitals didn't screen blood in 1986 I'll never know!! I told them I was sick of being single and my brother Andy laughed and said "well if you changed your attitude with people n what not then you wouldnt be single". Erm.....ever thought that maybe if they changed their attitudes towards me then I wouldn't be the way I am? Maybe I wouldn't go to bed every night wishing I wouldn't wake up the morning after. Just maybe i'd regain my self-confidence and i'd love myself but right now it doesn't seem possible.

After already feeling so low,I decided to text my so-called 'friend' to see if she was busy. Her reply was "yeah but u can text me". I got pretty much the same reply when I needed a friend yesterday too. Guess I won't be texting her again then. The only friends that are ever really there are those I speak to online but there are times when I need to be around a friendly face and to be told everything will be ok. I'm just glad I have my pets because they are the only reason i'm living.


I gotta ask myself....is there really any point anymore?